Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Goodbye My Friend

Sunday afternoon, my companion of 14 years, my loving, sweet boy Harley passed away.


I had actually planned on attending my first endurance ride this weekend, but it was cancelled due to the weather.  Otherwise, I may not have been home.


I had just gotten home from washing my "new" (used) car (more on that later) and walked in to find Harley seizing and struggling to breathe by the entry door.  Looking at him I knew that he had only minutes left--a trip to the vet was futile, especially with it being Sunday evening.  No one would be able to get to him quickly enough.  

I placed him gently on the chaise by the window and quickly put the dogs out in their pen.  I came back in and spent Harley's final minutes with him, telling him how much I love him, letting him know how thankful I was to have him in my life.  He let go quickly once I was with him and passed peacefully.  Eventually I found the energy to place him on his favorite cat bed, wrap him in a sheet and bury him in my shade garden in the back yard.  


He was old and had been slowly losing weight over the past couple of years, so this wasn't completely unexpected.  It certainly didn't make things any easier, though.


Harley has been with me through so much through the years.  He's lounged in many a house....


He's put up with many a new furry companion....


He helped me maintain order and civility through the household....


I admit he didn't exactly approve of everything that I did....


But at the end of the day, all Harley ever asked for was to cuddle up in a blanket with me and purr me to sleep.


He and Charlie have been the two old men of the house for as long as I've been divorced.


It's so odd now to be in the house without him.  I'm not sure how long it will take before I stop seeing him out of the corner of my eye, or have to stop myself from calling for him at feeding time.


Harley was most definitely a big part of my life and now that part of my life is gone.  As sad as I am, what I feel most is gratitude.   I am so thankful to have had such a special animal be part of my life for so long.


 I love you, kitten.

~J

8 comments:

Alan T Hainkel said...

Wish I could have met him... Seems like he was one cool cat... *big hugs*

Kate said...

I am so sorry for your loss. We have an old cat named Fat Cat who looks like your boy, and is no longer fat due to advancing old age - he doesn't have too much time left now.

Calm, Forward, Straight said...

So good that fates conspired for you to be there with him when he passed.

A lovely tribute to your feline friend.

TeresaA said...

I am so sorry for your loss. he was a beautiful kitty. I am glad that you were able to spend time with him at the end.

Nick said...

Jessie,

I remembered when you got him and remember how skittish he was. The funniest memory I have of him is when Dad was taking care of him. One night Harley was sleeping in his bed, and Dad didn't want to disturb him so he slept downstairs on the couch.

Harley's loss wasn't taken lightly for obvious reasons. He needed you as much as you needed him. Rest easy knowing that he had a long and happy life with someone so caring.

Jessie said...

Thank you so very much, everyone. Nick, I absolutely love that story--I had to share it, even though Dad will shoot me for sure :) It made me smile for the first time in several days. Sometimes the loss hurts so much you forgot all those great times like that. Thank you for sharing.

Annette said...

It's hard to lose a companion who's been through so many years and changes with you. Sending you a hug.

Kristen Eleni Shellenbarger said...

Aw, what a sweet man he seemed to be. 14 yrs of a great love is wonderful. I'm sorry for the loss of your friend/pet.